Girl Talk // Periods, Smear Tests and Ovarian Cysts // A Personal Account.

Afternoooooon!!!

It is September... Which means we are heading into autumn and I am SO excited about it. It's my favourite time of year and this only means the countdown to Christmas can now begin!!!

I have decided to do a more of a chatty and informative post today for all the girlies out there. As you would of guessed from the title of this post I want to talk bout all things 'woman' which means, all the not-so-nice things that come along with being a lady. I want to chat about things that have happened to me personally and touch on subjects that don't always get discussed by us gals. 

Periods, smear tests and ovarian cysts are some of the things that us as women have to contend with but can freak some people out, especially the mention of the dreaded "smear test". If you are a guy reading this, I suggest you sign off now before you are grossed out! Ha. :) 

Okay, so I have never been pregnant so I cannot add this to the list of things that we have to deal with. But the things I have had to deal with I wanted to share with you to ease your minds slightly if you are worried about the above. 

" I love my period" says no one ever!!

Periods, I have THE WORST in the world I swear. I am on the pill and have been since I think I was sixteen years old. I got put on them originally because I was having really painful monthlies. Now I double up on my pill to try and settle them some more because as I have got older the pain has returned. So, I will have my period, then I will take my one pack and then once that has finished I will then move straight onto the second pack. That way I have 6 periods a year instead of 12. Don't worry the doctor told me it's fine to do that.   

That aside jeeze they are vile little things. The pain I get is horrendous and on the second day I usually feel so ill, I get a headache, cramps, almost pass out and feel very sick. I think a lot of it is to do with the pain and to make matters worse I seem to have occurred what me and my friends call "the bum pain". I won't go into it but if you know what I mean, you will know how excruciating that is. In short, I suffer big time. 

I end up looking even more like Casper than I do now with dark rings around my eyes. I look disgusting. These are the times I thank the lord that I am single. :D

I end up looking like something from the walking dead!!!

Does anyone else have this problem? Mine aren't particularly heavy, just normal but the pain is the big issue. Most of the time I cannot move out of my bed, let alone function. It's a pain in the ass when I am working too. 

I also cannot use Tampax due to the fact I had a reaction to them back in the day so now I have to use the frickin towels which, lets face it aren't the most attractive of things to use. The night ones are like a frickin nappy and they are uncomfortable and I just feel very vulnerable. 

I would like to know if anyone else has had the whole 'reaction' thing like me? 

I don't think it is 'normal' to be in this much pain when I have a period because it has progressively got worse and as most people know, doctors just seem to fob you off. The amount of times I have heard "you just have bad periods" is stupid. If that is the case, I don't know how I am meant to put up with the feeling like I am giving birth each time I have one. (I wouldn't know what it is like to give birth but surely it's about on the same wavelength?)

I NEVER take painkillers. Call me The Hulk.

Onto the those two words that will fill most women with dread and anxiety when they hear them... SMEAR TEST.

Honestly guys, it really isn't as bad as most people make out. Okay I have a pretty good pain tolerance, which is apt especially as 6 times in the year I have to be like The Hulk. So PLEASE don't listen to anyone that says any different. If any of you guys reading this haven't had a smear test yet but are maybe due one this could be of interest to you, especially if you're anxious. 

I cannot stress anymore on how important it is for you to go to your smear test appointment. It can save your life, literally. 

The first time I had mine was when I was 25 and I was really nervous as I didn't know what to expect. Literally it takes seconds and it is done. Obviously, have a lady doctor do it as you will feel more comfortable and will relax you more. She will then use this plastic like duck beak (ha ha) kind of instrument so she can access what ever she needs to access down there. That for me was a little uncomfortable but as soon as that was done she took a swab and that was that. Done. You will feel a little scratch possibly when the doctor takes the sample but that is it. No pain, no torture chamber just a normal procedure.   

For me, the results bothered me more. Unfortunately for me when they did come through they came back as abnormal with mild dyskaryosis. The first thing that ran through my mind was "oh my goodness, do I have cancer?" That is and was not the case. Even so it still put the fear of god into me. It is not something every 25 year old wants to hear *covers eyes*. What my results meant was that I have some small changes to my cells in my cervix which needed to be investigated, just to be on the safe side. 

I freaked out. Not going to lie. I was in tears a lot of the time. I had to go for an appointment at the hospital where I would need to have a colposcopy done. I had to have a sample taken away from my cervix/womb to be tested for any abnormal cells that could develop into something more serious. Again that procedure wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst either.

That wait was horrible, I just wanted it to be okay. And it was!! :) 

My test came back with the results lower than CIN 1 and the abnormal smear test came from some 'acute inflammation' which could be down to anything like irritation from soap. 

I had my other one the other week (as I went back to normal 3 year screening) and it came back normal!!! Yay! I was DREADING those results understandably. Ha. 

The importance of my personal account is ten fold, because what if I hadn't of gone for that test. That COULD OF been something sinister and this story might of  not had a happy ending. 

Ladies. YOU MUST go for you smear tests. Yes it is nerve-wracking but think about the satisfaction that you are gaining just knowing you have done something that could potentially save your life. Not everyone is as lucky as I have been but 9/10 your result will be normal. :)

My hot water bottle is my best friend." A friend in need is a friend indeed". 

Ovarian cysts. They are the devil incarnate let me tell you. I have never ever had one up until recently and by golly I wish I had never encountered one!!! This is saying something. The pain is WORSE than my period pains, I have never felt pain like it. Since having one and talking to people about it a lot of women have said having one of those rupture is worse than labour pain. Well I had one and mine ruptured. It was no fun and games, I was admitted into hospital with mine. And oh, guess what. I am experiencing another one as I type. 

Apparently, they can "just appear" It is nothing you have done and you cannot do anything to stop them occurring. :( 

The first time I had one I came home from work and felt really odd. Ill. This pain in my lower left abdomen started and it would not go. I could not sleep, I couldn't move. There was no relief. 

I almost called in sick at work the next day but I went in thinking it would pass. It didn't, the pain then became excruciating and was coming in waves of like 5 seconds. I almost had to call the ambulance out to me. I didn't know what was going on. The only way I could describe the pain was like a stitch sensation that turned into major stinging and then when it reared up, it felt like I was being stabbed. It is hard to describe pain.

I went to the doctors and he had a feel and he then kindly informed me that he thinks it is definitely an ovarian cyst. I was shocked. What the hell? 

I spent the rest of day in bed at home and I ended up ringing the doctor back saying it was getting unbearable and he ended up sending me to hospital where I was admitted overnight into the gynecology ward. It was horrible. I had to undergo various invasive tests and yes those hurt. And my cyst had ruptured hence the pain. They couldn't see my ovary fully on the scan as an organ got in the way, so they couldn't check if there were others on there. I was also nil by mouth too and I was really hungry. All I kept thinking  about was  my mums brownies!!!

The cravings. Junk. Standard. 

Well obviously there was other cysts because I now have had another rupture. In the same place as before. On top of my period too, so lets just say I have been really ill this week. 

 I am waiting for a scan date to come through as my doctor wants to know what is going on. He mentioned me going to hospital gain but I really didn't want that. All I can say is I DO NOT want another one. I would also like to add, I never take tablets (painkillers) and when I do take any that means I am in a lot of pain. How I didn't take any with the first cyst is beyond me. I did take some this time though. It was BAD.  

This has been a wordy post but I thought it would be something informative to read, you may be going through the same things or you are interested to know about the things I have mentioned? These topics have all included my person accounts and I hope it may help some of you if you are experiencing anything similar. I would love to hear your thoughts and stories. It's nice to know you're not on your own!!! 

L xx      

M.A.C Ruby Woo Review // First Impressions!!!

YOOOOOOOOOOO!!! 

Again it has been a while since I last posted something. I really need to schedule some time in to write again regularly. I am so lazy sometimes. But today I am back with a little ol' review :) 

I received my first ever Mac product on Christmas Day. I did put this on my 'most wanted list' and gratefully my parents got it me. 

This was the Mac Retro Matte Lipstick in 'Ruby Woo'. It was all beautifully wrapped and placed actually on my Christmas tree with a bow on it and I instantly knew what it was as it was so cute and small. 

Now, I am a little bit of a hoarder when it comes to new things. I have mentioned this fact before and it's nothing new to me, so it will be no surprise that I have ONLY JUST opened this lipstick.

I love things when they are in their 'new' state and because I have never had a Mac product before I really didn't want to ruin the state of this beautiful product. 

Okay, so my first impressions when opening this product was "wow". I loved the bullet style packaging, I also loved the simplicity of the brand itself. It stands out and looks classy without even trying.

  

The first thing that I noticed about this lipstick upon opening it was the smell!!! OH-MY-GOD, it smells AMAZING!!! No joke, to me it literally smells like cakes. It has this subtle sweet/cakey scent that really makes me want to eat it. I never really say that about a product, especially a lip item as usually they smell and taste like plastic. Like you know it's come from a factory. 

This lippy smells like heaven, if heaven was to smell like anything it would be this. Period. 

Aside from the mouth-watering smell the colour of this lipstick is flat out gorgeous. It is so pigmented and vibrant and such a classic 60's style 'red'. I  LOVE a red lipstick especially as I am a pale face (no not a vampire) it really stands out on me. It is super retro in style and how the colour looks in its formed self reflects perfectly on your lips. 

Now I will only wear a matte consistency lipstick as I dislike any kind of sheen or gloss, the reason being as I like to slightly over draw my top lip so it is consistent with my bottom lip. I have been reaching more to lipliner's recently to fill in my lips (especially the Rimmel Red Diva and Cappuccino) but with 'Ruby Woo' being a Matte in my head I knew I would love it. 

So I have come to the conclusion that is smells awesome and looks beautiful but what is is going to be like to wear? 

As soon as I popped this bad boy on I noticed straight away how matte this lipstick actually is. I didn't realise until today that this is the mattest (is that even a word?) of matte's that Mac do, they have a normal matte finish and then 'retro matte'. I though it just said 'retro' because of the type of colour, but nope this is a hell of a dry lipstick. I first used this with my Rimmel 'Red Diva' lipliner but only outlined my lips with it and then filled them in with Ruby Woo. Within seconds of applying I noticed straight away how uncomfortable my mouth felt. The only way I could describe it is that it felt like I had eaten a doughnut and wasn't able to lick my lips, either that or it felt like I had face planted a pile of sand. It does feel gross to wear, I am not going to beat around the bush, it's not enjoyable at all. 

I also found that it wore off quicker than I thought so when you go to re-apply a layer to build the colour back up it really intensified in dryness and created a horrible 'ring of death' around my mouth. I hate that. It also crumbled around the lipliner and left little white streaks and dots where the product has come off, that has never happened to me before. 

This really annoyed me as I have longed for Mac products for years but always thought they were expensive, so I kind of had high hopes for this but I was seriously let down by the formula. However now I know 'retro' is really dry I am hoping the normal matte shades would be way better. It has up until now put me off purchasing any more lip products from them but with this new information I think I may give it a whirl. I really want to try out the 'Burgundy'lip liner and 'Diva' lipstick and I also really want 'Velvet Teddy' but it's always sold out. 

The plus side to this product is (that is if you can handle the intense dry mouth) is that the lipstick looks frickin awesome on, like I said it's highly pigmented and if you are feeling really crap one day, put this on and you will feel like a god damn 60's pin up. 

Okay, maybe I wouldn't go that far but it does make you feel fabulous!! For it to really stand out though I would suggest keeping your eye makeup very miminal, either a bit of mascara and leave it like that or with a small cat flick on your upper lid. 

Let your mouth do the talking. :) 

Taken when I bought my Tanya Burr book
(excuse the wide eye look) 

I hope that this little review has helped you make a decision on whether to buy this lipstick or not and if any of you readers have any tips or even comments about what you have thought of Ruby Woo let me know. 

♥